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Feb. 21st, 2012 | 08:36 pm
mood: calmcalm

I am pretty tired..

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Feb. 16th, 2012 | 09:13 pm
mood: exhaustedexhausted

4am doing homework...what was I thinking? I'm totally burnt out today..I should go to bed soon. It was a good, busy day today.

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you have to turn it off

Feb. 15th, 2012 | 09:01 pm
mood: fullfull

We went to see the vow today with Rachel McAdmams. She's by far my favorite actress. I want to draw her. It was weird going out on a date with Ricky, but nice to get out of the house. We never spend time together, just us. Mostly because I have this unbearable guilt when I leave my girls with someone else. I just miss them, I think. I do really love them..and I love romance movies. I’m inlove with the thought being inlove and the perfect love. Loving someone so much. But real world love isn’t like the movie love. And if it is why the heck did I get the short end of the stick?

Back to The Vow. I was crying on and off throughout it and was thinking “why can’t my life be like that?” minus the traumatic brain injury and all. I’ve also been thinking a lot about how I could have done things in the past to change things now. But if I had then I wouldn’t have my girls and if I didn’t have them I really think I would have died. Because my life meant nothing until I had them.

Started my sociology class and had to watch a documentary about hippies. Extremely groovy.

I’ve really got to get to bed. I’ve got to get up at the butt crack of dawn for work. BAH.

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bark bark

Feb. 13th, 2012 | 03:11 pm
mood: hungryhungry

I've got a terrible headache...ouch ouch ouch...

I think I'm gonna take the girls to KFC and eat at the buffet. Delilah is sleeping right now, so when she awakens, we shall go.

...anything to get out of doing laundry..right?

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no matter where you go, oh oh

Feb. 13th, 2012 | 09:25 am
mood: calmcalm

So as I am trying to get my journal together. Bear with me..

Today I have started my sociology course and it's going to be interesting to take a class that is consumed with "any would a prudent nurse would.." or "its just goof nursing skills to.." I've done nothing but eat, breath, and live nursing classes since August 2008. And it's all I know. I am excited to start though. Because this year off of school has felt so unproductive. And I feel so happy to be continuing my education. Masters in nursing, here I come! Just...at a snail like pace.

So much for the whole doctor thing. That's a thing of the past. I've gotten new goals in life that all revolve around my daughters. I don't want to be in school forever and miss my children growing up. I mean in the long run, sure, it would be lots of money to help pay for their schooling and get them awesome things like cars, houses, and just things that would help them as adults that I never got help with from my parents. But what good is having cool materialistic things without any emotional stability of a mom who is there by your side throughout your childhood? Besides, I think my mom throwing me into adult hood (Because I decided to keep my paychecks to get a car at 18) really made me the person I am today. but not only was she not there for me as far as materialistic things, but she was gone emotionally for me. And as an adult I can see how it affected me and my personality. I will be here 100% for my daughters. And when they become old I don’t want to be this busy doctor, I want to be there emotionally and physically for my girls even then. Not only for them, but for my grandchildren. I want to be my children's children babysitter.

Ricky told me the other day he would stay home with the kids while I went to medical school and I felt almost jealous of the time he would get with the girls and I wouldn't. And besides, he's all talk.

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no matter if you fast, no matter if your slow

Feb. 12th, 2012 | 01:06 pm

I guess I should work on my module..while the girls are napping.

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html..BAH

Feb. 7th, 2012 | 01:54 pm
mood: busybusy

Wow, I havn't worked with LJ HTML in a while..Sheesh, with HTML in general in years, it seems! Nursing school for sure took over my life! I'm trying to make it exactly like my blogger. Because I'm inlove with that layout.

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the tires stuck!

Feb. 6th, 2012 | 06:43 pm

Well I have a blog on blogger.com(http://00meow.blogspot.com/), and have been updating on that. Perhaps I will just come back to livjournal..as it's easier to find friends on here! but LJ confuses me!

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Apr. 1st, 2010 | 10:24 am

IM A NURSE!! I PASSED!

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HEY!!

Apr. 16th, 2008 | 02:05 pm

I got accepted into the nursing program for August!! There's like 50 opening and nearly 480 people applied!!! I am so lucky! *dies* I got to get organized!!

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